The journey to loving myself: Part 1

The dropping of the H-Bomb.

There I stood with my mom, sparkly-eyed and jumping for joy (in my head), in the Boy’s Clothing department at the opulent Muirhead’s Department Store in Dearborn Michigan, looking at rack after groovy rack of the most spectacular clothing I’d ever seen in person. This clothing looked every bit as exciting as I imagined possible from what I had seen on TV shows, such as The Jim Nabors Hour! And they were mine for the choosing! My dream had finally come true!

Because we were the poor preacher’s kids, the Muirhead’s (members of our church when my dad preached in Dearborn, who owned a very high end department store) invited us to come to their store and pick out 2-3 outfits each before school started. I can still smell the richness of this store… it emanated the scent of wealth.

As I stood there, my mind exploded with images of how great I would look as I strutted down the hallway flashing people the peace sign on my way to my classroom on that first day of school. Every head would turn and gasp in awe of my grooviness! As I stood there contemplating which of these amazing outfits I would first try on, my world came to a screeching halt.

“Excuse me ma’am…”

As I’m hearing in the background, nearly drowned out in the midst of the purple haze of my glory,

“… you seem to be in the wrong section…”

The sales woman begins to whisper to my mother in a tone as if she were speaking of a horrible and unthinkable disease.

“What?!” Snap! …goes my head just in time to witness the sales woman pause for a few seconds more to look over her shoulders, in either direction; I guess to see if the coast was clear for what she was about to do.

“Ahem, you see ma’am, this section is for slim boys” as her voice became even softer, and slightly malicious, as if she knew she was about to drop the H-bomb on a little boys heart.

“… your boy is obviously HUSKY.” 

 

As the mushroom cloud was forming above my head, and before I could completely comprehend what exactly just happened, she turned to lead us to the department especially assigned for my “type”.

I can vividly remember taking that long walk of shame to the far corner of the boys department, with my spirit completely crushed,  as I was placed in front of the ugliest rack of beige clothing I have ever seen. The letters of the sign hanging over the one, singularly very sad rack of clothing, designed especially for me, simply read, for the entire world to see, in big fat, chunky bold letters – HUSKY BOYS.

 

My life was over.

 

“HUSKY?!?!”

“obviously!?!?”

 

It was official. In that moment, on that day in the late summer of 1971, at the age of 7, I was fat… unlovable…and obviously not worthy of groovy clothing.

 

This moment in time forged the basis for my self image that would follow me for the rest of my life through to adulthood. I grew up thinking I was fat… with varying degrees of non-love for my body.

…to be continued.  (Click here for Part 2) 

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Thanks for reading.

Jimmy

good VIBRATIONS

If you have a row of tuning forks, each of different notes, all lined up together and you were to introduce a duplicate of one of these forks and activate it with a thud of your hand – you would soon notice that one of the forks that is lined up will also begin to vibrate and sing…and all of the others will sit still and silent. When you look more closely, you will notice that the one that is now singing along will be of the same note to which your hand activated fork is tuned; they are both tuned to the same frequency.

 

Matching frequencies will find each other and begin to resonate with each other.

 

Everything we can see and not see in this universe is a vibration… waves of energy. Everything from the colors we see with our eyes, the thoughts we think with our mind, the feelings we feel within our hearts, the planet beneath our feet, the sun up in the sky to the stars throughout our universe – all of these are waves of vibratory energy.

 

Our experiences in this life are all based upon vibrations and frequencies; and our thoughts and feelings are the most powerful frequencies we have in creating our life experiences. Your life experience will only be that of which you are vibrating, or in this case thinking and feeling…and can be nothing other.

 

You cannot make the other forks in the line sing along with your frequency if they don’t match with your frequency.

 

If you are not pleased with the life frequency you are experiencing, then change your frequency to that of the life experience you wish to experience. Once you begin to vibrate at a different rate, you will automatically draw to you the matching vibrations, or frequencies…or life experiences. Use the vibrations you have at your disposal – your thoughts and your feelings and begin to think and feel your way to a new frequency.

 

And the wonderful part of all of this – only you can choose which frequency you wish to vibrate. You have your power of choice. Please use it mindfully.

 

“Everything is energy and that’s all there is to it. Match the frequency of the reality you want and you cannot help but get that reality. It can be no other way. This is not philosophy. This is physics.” – Albert Einstein

 

“Imagination is everything; it is the preview of life’s coming attractions.” – Albert Einstein

YOU are a manifestation MACHINE

We live in a MAGICAL UNIVERSE.  And we have been given the KEY to unlock its MAGIC.  The only problem with us understanding the power of this KEY is that most of us don’t believe it has as much power as it does – because it sounds too simple.

If I were to say the word FREE WILL to you, would you believe me when I tell you it is THE KEY to unlock the power to create anything you wish in this universe?

We have been given only ONE thing in this universe over which we have full control, full command… our free will.

Free will is defined as: free and independent thought, the ability to choose a thought.

Sounds rather simple, doesn’t it? It sounds too simple to be as powerful as it actually is.

We have the power to choose any thought we can imagine. And thought energy is THE most powerful creative tool we have in our tool chest for creating for ourselves. Our thoughts have creative powers that will materialize anything upon which you focus enough energy and belief (expectation). It sounds way too simple, huh?

Well, guess what? What I just gave you is the formula to create anything your mind can think (imagine).

THOUGHTS   +   BELIEF  =   MATERIALIZATION

What I am telling you… If you feed a thought enough energy, enough passion, and you have clear expectations and believe that it IS coming – IT WILL MATERIALIZE IN YOUR LIFE. I am not saying that it will, POOF, show up immediately (though I have seen some amazing things happen in my life – almost instantly! See my story near the enf of this post, below)

For those of you who still don’t want to believe this, if you are a person who wants scientific proof, look up Nobel Prize-winning physicist Richard Feynman and his Double Slit Experiment. His experiments have proven that our thoughts have unlimited creative power in this universe – limited only by what we can imagine and expect.

Your Free Will is key here because this puts YOU in the CONTROL SEAT of your MANIFESTATION MACHINE.

If THOUGHTS are the most powerful energy you have to create for yourself and YOU have command of CHOOSING your THOUGHTS (free will) – then Captain, I believe you are in the command seat of your life.

We have been told EXACTLY this from wise men, passed down over the ages.

“What you focus upon – you get.”

“Whatsoever a man THINKETH with his HEART, SO IS HE.”

Break this last one down. What ever you can choose to imagine for yourself (thinketh) and expect or believe with your heart – you ARE.

And now we have science telling us the very same thing.

How much more proof do we need?

 

Here is an example of one of the many times I used this formula and it worked.

Back in the mid 90’s, I was starting my second candle company after my partner and I just closed my first candle company and I needed one last investor to come up with the amount I needed to fund the deal. I made the following statement to the universe,

“I am calling forth the people or person with financial wherewithal, financial prowess, who will guide me financially, allowing me the creative control to build this company to great heights…”

I said this statement with conviction. I have manifested great things before and I expected it would work. I went to bed. It was that simple. The next day, in the late morning, I received a call from this woman with whom I haven’t spoken in a few years. She said,

“I woke up this morning with this idea and I walked into the kitchen and told this idea to my mother. And believe it or not, she also woke up with the very same idea, so this is why I am giving you a call. We are interested in going into the candle business with you… we have the financial backing and since we are in the banking industry we can guide you financially. You know how to make candles so you can have the creative control…”

I kid you not. She damn-near repeated to me, in her own words, the exact statement I called forth the night before. Even though I have played this manifestation game several times before this instance, I nearly choked when she said those words.

This is one of the more immediate manifestations I have had. But let me tell you, at that time I was not messing around. My back was up against a wall and I was FULL of PASSION and BELIEF.

If you have tried creating like this before and you have not been happy with the results – then take a true look at your expectations… take a long walk with what your true inner belief system is telling you.

In one of my next posts I will give you an exercise that will help you understand what your true inner belief system is telling you.

I will also have a post that will make manifesting MUCH easier… though there are a few steps in this process and I will cover those in a future post.

See it, feel it… be it. It is that simple.

peace, love, Jimmy

our MAGICAL universe

We live in a MAGICAL UNIVERSE and we have been given ONE (and only one) SUPER POWER so that we can unlock this MAGIC. When you look at the facts, it is pretty simple how it all works.

 

We are ONE with ALL THINGS

This is just what it says. We are one with all things. We are simply an eco-system within an eco-system within an eco-system… infinitum. For goodness sakes, we are made up of the same elements as the rest of the universe – the SAME EXACT ELEMENTS as the STARS! We cannot be separate from this universe, just as a fish swimming in the ocean cannot be separate from the ocean. If I hate you, I hate a part of myself. We are all in this soup together!

 

Now, here is the great part…THE FACTS. One of the findings of Quantum Physics is the fact that we are all participating in ONE MASSIVE experience, though we each get to experience it from our individual points of view. This is why this thing we call LIFE looks different to each of us. We are ONE with ALL THINGS!

We are OPEN-ENDED, LIMITLESS POTENTIAL

200 years ago they would have burned you at the stake if you told people we would someday be able to fly to the moon and back. So far, we as humans have been able to manifest some amazing things. We live in a universe made up of subatomic particles that are limitless, unrealized potential waiting to be called into action by our thoughts and expectations (beliefs). This is another of the wonderful findings of Quantum Physics. We can create endlessly for ourselves, limited only by our imagination and beliefs.

 

OUR THOUGHTS have CREATIVE POWERS.

For generations we have had the idea that our THOUGHTS were simply ethereal, without physical implication. This is no longer the case; we now have evidence that our thoughts have creative powers – supported with findings in both Quantum Physics and Neuroscience.

 

Something that is really exciting in the field of Neuroscience is the work of, recently deceased, Dr. Candace Pert. Without going too deep into the scientific terminology, she discovered that when we think emotionally charged thoughts a portion of our brain instantly floods our body with billions of “communication” molecules which attach themselves to awaiting receptors in our cells. And as we continue to feed this information to the cells, the cells begin to create more and more receptors to receive this information. Whatever this information is: pain, love, hate, fear, it is communicated to the cells and the cells take it on as its truth and respond accordingly. The cells in our bodies then become addicted to this information and begin to demand more and more of these information molecules. This explains why and how we become addicted to pain and mistreatment. So, this is a good thing. Just as we can become addicted to the negative thoughts, we can also become addicted to the healthy thoughts. This is why you begin to crave exercise and better foods once you continue, over time, to flood your body with positive thoughts and emotions.

Though here is the reality – the receptors, all of the receptors positive and negative, are always there – they never go away. But as you think new thoughts and feed your body new information, the cells begin to create receptors for this new information. As you continue to think new thoughts and feed the cells more and more, the cell’s desire for the old information begins to dissipate as the desire for the new information begins to increase. What you feed grows. This is HUGE!

 

What would happen to our bodies if we begin to flood it with thoughts of love and acceptance? How do you think your body would heal if you begin to flood it with visualizations of healing love?

 

We have ONE (and only one) SUPER POWER: FREE WILL

If you have the ability to choose a thought, then you have command over the one and only thing upon this planet over which you have complete control – your FREE WILL. The definition of Free Will that I like the most is: free and independent choice; the ability to choose a thought.

 

And it just so happens that this one super power, puts us in the COMMAND SEAT of our UNIVERSE.

 

Guess what? This is nothing new. You have been doing this your entire life. If this is news to you, you might want to sit down for this one: Your life is an accumulation of our chosen thoughts, period.

 

You cannot choose what someone might do to you, though you have the free will to choose what to think about it. And YOU make the choice if you allow what happened to you to limit your future actions. And YOU make the choice if you choose to let it go.

 

You ALWAYS have your Power of Choice, your Power of Free Will. Your physical freedom may be restricted by others, but you and only YOU can choose to restrict your thoughts. As long as you have the capacity to choose a thought, you have command of your Free Will.

So, what does all of this mean? It is amazingly quite simple.

 

We have been given the power of FREE WILL to think ANY THOUGHT we can IMAGINE.

 

And, why is that so important?

 

Our THOUGHTS have the ability to CREATE for ourselves ANYTHING we can IMAGINE. 

 

And, what does that have to do with anything?

 

We have control over the one thing that creates our lives to be – OUR FREE WILL!

If you start CHOOSING YOUR THOUGHTS consciously, YOU WILL BEGIN LIVING THE LIFE OF YOUR OWN CHOOSING! 

LIFE will not be happening TO YOU – LIFE will be happening FOR YOU!

 

So, I find it funny that the only super power we have, Free Will, just so happens to be the MAGICICAL KEY necessary to operate within our MAGICAL UNIVERSE.

 

Our Free Will is the spark for the engine within our SELF MANIFESTATION MACHINE. When we are in full command of our Self Manifestation Machine, we can easily maneuver through this universe and do so in a manner of our choosing.

 

In my next article I will discuss the inner workings of our Self Manifestation Machine.

 

Thank you for reading!

 

Peace, Love, Jimmy